I just can't be honest...

Why am I so stubborn , I also don't know why . Don't ask me , I also don't have the best answer for myself . Even I also don't know what am i needed in my mind . I'm truly sorry , I'm apologize here for you . What can I do to make you believe that I'm really missing you all the time . I'm so stubborn , always did something rash and impulse . I always talk to you warily in every single of my word . But , it's failed also . I tried to evade it , but things seems to be so hard for me . I'm not blaming everything that happened to us , I just can't be so strong enough to bear my words and even success my little promise . I pondering everyday and night , why u would show me such reaction and response when I really trying to defuse my anger and solve everything happened to us . Maybe that is harsh for you , maybe i couldn't understand at all . Maybe I'm being too egotistical . But , I really truly upset and regret for myself . I hope i'm not conceal everything in myself , either you . I hope we can truly forgive for each other and being honest to talk with each other . Yeang , you know I really do , right ? You are the best for me . I love you . Night .