I'm so sorry. I think I've changed a lot. Dear, did you ever read my blog again? I got quite long never update my blog. You remember what I've mentioned to you before? Blog represent my heart, it can express my very true feeling in here. Every single words I'd promise here, did you still remember? I bet you got, but, I already forgot all the promises I had made for you. I'm bad , right? You remember last time when you hanged up my phone? I will gone insane and try to calling you like thousand times. But now, I think I really changed. I'm worry, I am very worry for our future. I don't know how many times I'd broke your fragile heart. I'm really sorry, I was wrong. I'm so regret, I missed you so much. I can't even sleep well. I afraid of being alone again. I need you , I need you more than everyone. I need your hugs. Sorry , please come back to me again. I love you.
Do you realize that I always think too much in the night ? I feel so fragile lately . Everything that happened to me is always remind me of you . My mind and thought is full of you . I'm so tired , really . I miss you too very much . We used to quarrel and argue when last time , is me don't know how to considerate your feeling . Thought you was trying to find some trouble and always angry of me without any reason . I thought girls are trouble before . Because that time , i really don't know how a person missing their love one is so suffer and helpless . But me , never want to try to understand how are your feeling .How are those feeling that missing of somebody that you love . Is so tired . I'm really sorry , now , i really deeply understand how true you love me before . If the GOD let us start over again one more time . I swear , I rather do anything just for you , even my life . I started can't live without you . Without you , my life is so empty , fallen . Finally , I realized I never stand at your side and support of you . I just wish I can give you all my best . I'm trying my best . We talked about many things about our future , and where are we plan to travel , many many joyful things that happened to us . I really can't forget about it . Yeang , I really cherish you so much . I hope to see the smile on your face every single day . Only you can give me what i needed . I really so miss you , I miss your hug , your kisses . And the Lovely touch of your hand on my skin . Where are you , I miss you so much . I was wrong .Day after day , I'm going insane of you . No matter how my heart breaks , I always waiting for you .
I know i'm acting backward these day . I'm so sorry , can't give you any help when you really need me . I know what i said to you it's made you sad so much . I'm so sorry , I don't mind to do everything that you demand me to do . I just want you to be happy , that's is the purpose why I love you , cause your smile melt my heart , I melting in your eyes , falling in love with you without any reason . I'm so sorry to make you lose your wide and sweetest smile in the world . I missed you .
Why am I so stubborn , I also don't know why . Don't ask me , I also don't have the best answer for myself . Even I also don't know what am i needed in my mind . I'm truly sorry , I'm apologize here for you . What can I do to make you believe that I'm really missing you all the time . I'm so stubborn , always did something rash and impulse . I always talk to you warily in every single of my word . But , it's failed also . I tried to evade it , but things seems to be so hard for me . I'm not blaming everything that happened to us , I just can't be so strong enough to bear my words and even success my little promise . I pondering everyday and night , why u would show me such reaction and response when I really trying to defuse my anger and solve everything happened to us . Maybe that is harsh for you , maybe i couldn't understand at all . Maybe I'm being too egotistical . But , I really truly upset and regret for myself . I hope i'm not conceal everything in myself , either you . I hope we can truly forgive for each other and being honest to talk with each other . Yeang , you know I really do , right ? You are the best for me . I love you . Night .
Hey , baby girl , what are you doing there in Betong ? Is 11 p.m now , I think you know what should I do . I tried to called you many times , but the line seems can't connect to thailand . But , is alright , I know you coming back soon , I try to make myself busy and find something to do in here . If not , I think I might going to be insane of you slowly . Erm , are you having fun there ? Enjoy any delicious food ? I wanna ask you many things , but can't find you . So , I posted this to let you see when you online . 11 p.m now , I really can't sleep well without your voice . =) So , these few days , i used to sleep at 5 a.m , and wake up at 2 or 3 noon . It's so boring to pass my holiday without you , what can I do ? So, tomorrow you coming back soon , and we going to thailand again , XD . But , is an island , I think it might be fun . I stop at here now , wanna continue my final project for tomorrow submission . I miss you ... muackxx
Hi , guess what , this is our third trip in this year . Last time , we spent a lot of good times in Port Dickson . I think I already used to write my blog and express my feeling in the middle of the night , but I kinda like it . I think she never knows what am i doing now , cause she having her sweet dreams at Ipoh , and having a lot of funs with her friends . By the way , this is our's Pulau Langkawi trip , if compare with 07 year Langkawi trip . I think this would be another type of enjoyment in my life . I love to enjoy everything and share everything and everywhere with my soulmate , I had a lot of good memories at there too . Do you guys know what , we spent 12 hours in a bus to get to K.Perlis . After that , we also waited 2 hours to get ferry to get to P.Langkawi , is so ridiculous , we wasted a lot of times in there . However , is also a nice trip for me .Dear , I really can't wait the coming of November , I felt so excited . At last , I just wanna say , Yeang , I really miss you so much now , hope u can read my mind , I know it can't be ...lol...and another thing , you look very pretty in Bikini....Muackxxx...
Tonight is a great night , everbody is haveing their nice and sweet dream at this moment . But I can't fall asleep at all . My mind was just thinking about everything that i had promise to her . I made a lot of promises to her . But , it just seems like everything is being same and is not getting better and change . She afraid , she started not believe in me at all , she afraid of my promise , afraid of our's future . My dear , if you saw my blog , i want to tell you , trust me , everything I do , every promises I made to you , what I want , is just only you . You are the only person who can change me , no more selfish , no more lonelisness in my life . I never want to break any of my promises that I had promised to you . I really wan to tell you how much you affected me and my life , I can change only just for you . If I can make a promise to you now , I will look deeply into your eyes , and whisper beside your ear tell you that , " I will be with you forever , no matter what happen between of us , I promise ."
I don't know what am i doing here now , I don't know what am i thinking and what could I explain at this moment . Inside my mind , I just can't stop thiking of your crying face , i felt hurt , i felt i'm useless . Now at this time , both of us getting tired again , I making all the thinngs appeared once and once again . I hate myself , I hate everything that I have done . I never understand what you want from me , you never understand what am i want to get from you . Why always a man hurt their love one ? Why i need to care so much ? Because I am a man ? Why man cannot cry ? Why a man must bear all the responsible ? Why a man cannot just loved by someone ? I am so lonely , helpless , I have no more time for my own , even for friends , I gave the world and what i can give , even my soul . Yes , you are my soulmate , no doubt . No matter what happen ,nothing gonna change it inside my heart . Why am I acting like this ? I felt like I am no longer myself , I already become a girl , easily get hurt , scare , loneliness , breakable heart . Sometimes , I hope I could be a girl who can just loved by someone , care by someone . I am not that strong enough as you seen , I'm weak , fragile heart , even love to cry when i am getting lonely . Why must girl only get hurt by someone ? How about man ? Man is not what we seen that strong and brave , some man need more love than girls do . I admin I'm weak , fragile heart , need love , need care . But all I want is just you , I can give up everything just to let you know how much I love you and how much i need you , I could not imagine if i lose you in my life . I'm so sorry , Yeang . Is true , "You mean the world to me " I wouldn't change my mind , you already are the great for me . Just my fault , I need to be strong , brave , heedful for you , cause I know you need loved by me . I wouldn't let others grab you away from me , I can't lose you , I am getting tired to hurt you , I need to rest in your arms , keep me save from harms , I am fear of cold . I swear i will be a Better man .
