I'm so sorry ...

I know i'm acting backward these day . I'm so sorry , can't give you any help when you really need me . I know what i said to you it's made you sad so much . I'm so sorry , I don't mind to do everything that you demand me to do . I just want you to be happy , that's is the purpose why I love you , cause your smile melt my heart , I melting in your eyes , falling in love with you without any reason . I'm so sorry to make you lose your wide and sweetest smile in the world . I missed you .

I just can't be honest...

Why am I so stubborn , I also don't know why . Don't ask me , I also don't have the best answer for myself . Even I also don't know what am i needed in my mind . I'm truly sorry , I'm apologize here for you . What can I do to make you believe that I'm really missing you all the time . I'm so stubborn , always did something rash and impulse . I always talk to you warily in every single of my word . But , it's failed also . I tried to evade it , but things seems to be so hard for me . I'm not blaming everything that happened to us , I just can't be so strong enough to bear my words and even success my little promise . I pondering everyday and night , why u would show me such reaction and response when I really trying to defuse my anger and solve everything happened to us . Maybe that is harsh for you , maybe i couldn't understand at all . Maybe I'm being too egotistical . But , I really truly upset and regret for myself . I hope i'm not conceal everything in myself , either you . I hope we can truly forgive for each other and being honest to talk with each other . Yeang , you know I really do , right ? You are the best for me . I love you . Night .

11 p.m ...

Hey , baby girl , what are you doing there in Betong ? Is 11 p.m now , I think you know what should I do . I tried to called you many times , but the line seems can't connect to thailand . But , is alright , I know you coming back soon , I try to make myself busy and find something to do in here . If not , I think I might going to be insane of you slowly . Erm , are you having fun there ? Enjoy any delicious food ? I wanna ask you many things , but can't find you . So , I posted this to let you see when you online . 11 p.m now , I really can't sleep well without your voice . =) So , these few days , i used to sleep at 5 a.m , and wake up at 2 or 3 noon . It's so boring to pass my holiday without you , what can I do ? So, tomorrow you coming back soon , and we going to thailand again , XD . But , is an island , I think it might be fun . I stop at here now , wanna continue my final project for tomorrow submission . I miss you ... muackxx

Pulau Langkawi Trip...

Hi , guess what , this is our third trip in this year . Last time , we spent a lot of good times in Port Dickson . I think I already used to write my blog and express my feeling in the middle of the night , but I kinda like it . I think she never knows what am i doing now , cause she having her sweet dreams at Ipoh , and having a lot of funs with her friends . By the way , this is our's Pulau Langkawi trip , if compare with 07 year Langkawi trip . I think this would be another type of enjoyment in my life . I love to enjoy everything and share everything and everywhere with my soulmate , I had a lot of good memories at there too . Do you guys know what , we spent 12 hours in a bus to get to K.Perlis . After that , we also waited 2 hours to get ferry to get to P.Langkawi , is so ridiculous , we wasted a lot of times in there . However , is also a nice trip for me .Dear , I really can't wait the coming of November , I felt so excited . At last , I just wanna say , Yeang , I really miss you so much now , hope u can read my mind , I know it can't be ...lol...and another thing , you look very pretty in Bikini....Muackxxx...

Promise

Tonight is a great night , everbody is haveing their nice and sweet dream at this moment . But I can't fall asleep at all . My mind was just thinking about everything that i had promise to her . I made a lot of promises to her . But , it just seems like everything is being same and is not getting better and change . She afraid , she started not believe in me at all , she afraid of my promise , afraid of our's future . My dear , if you saw my blog , i want to tell you , trust me , everything I do , every promises I made to you , what I want , is just only you . You are the only person who can change me , no more selfish , no more lonelisness in my life . I never want to break any of my promises that I had promised to you . I really wan to tell you how much you affected me and my life , I can change only just for you . If I can make a promise to you now , I will look deeply into your eyes , and whisper beside your ear tell you that , " I will be with you forever , no matter what happen between of us , I promise ."

A man who need Loved

I don't know what am i doing here now , I don't know what am i thinking and what could I explain at this moment . Inside my mind , I just can't stop thiking of your crying face , i felt hurt , i felt i'm useless . Now at this time , both of us getting tired again , I making all the thinngs appeared once and once again . I hate myself , I hate everything that I have done . I never understand what you want from me , you never understand what am i want to get from you . Why always a man hurt their love one ? Why i need to care so much ? Because I am a man ? Why man cannot cry ? Why a man must bear all the responsible ? Why a man cannot just loved by someone ? I am so lonely , helpless , I have no more time for my own , even for friends , I gave the world and what i can give , even my soul . Yes , you are my soulmate , no doubt . No matter what happen ,nothing gonna change it inside my heart . Why am I acting like this ? I felt like I am no longer myself , I already become a girl , easily get hurt , scare , loneliness , breakable heart . Sometimes , I hope I could be a girl who can just loved by someone , care by someone . I am not that strong enough as you seen , I'm weak , fragile heart , even love to cry when i am getting lonely . Why must girl only get hurt by someone ? How about man ? Man is not what we seen that strong and brave , some man need more love than girls do . I admin I'm weak , fragile heart , need love , need care . But all I want is just you , I can give up everything just to let you know how much I love you and how much i need you , I could not imagine if i lose you in my life . I'm so sorry , Yeang . Is true , "You mean the world to me " I wouldn't change my mind , you already are the great for me . Just my fault , I need to be strong , brave , heedful for you , cause I know you need loved by me . I wouldn't let others grab you away from me , I can't lose you , I am getting tired to hurt you , I need to rest in your arms , keep me save from harms , I am fear of cold . I swear i will be a Better man .

Feel great now...

Hey , Im back , is quite a long time , assignment , project , exam . I felt exhausted , suffocated these few months . Feel like there is not time for me to rest or take a long breahte . But , i still got she supporting me no matter how hard is it . Thanks a lot . This picture look simple for you all , but , is really so meaningful for me . Why , i think you all might don't know what is it . Hehe ... is great feel and so happy . Hard to explain the feelings , she so gorgeous and adorable , lovely . I'm glad i living , and i'm in love with her . Drowned....lolss...I still got many things to share , coming up ... We should be happy , stay happy . There are still got a lot of fun and there might some special person appear in your life soon . I have found mine . My world chaged .

Because of you...

In the middle of the night , my mind started again , i can't stop thinking of her . I was listening a song at the moment , named ' because of you' . I started to think about myself , started to know what is love . Because of you , I changed ; Because of you , I loved ; Because of you , I learned ; Because of you , I never get enough . I wouldn't feel satisfied of your love . Hey...dear , still remember this sentence? ' Because of you , I dream bigger , reach higher , feel braver , love deeper ' . Thanks , I appreciate so much . Everything you did to me , even a small action , is so meaningful and sweet for me . I enjoy to be with you , and your family , although i didn't say it . But i'm so happy see your smilling face , felt naive and warm . Thanks for sharing with me , because of you , every part of my heart became you .