You always on my mind

Darling, I was wrong...

2010-08-13T02:14:00.005+08:00

I'm so sorry. I think I've changed a lot. Dear, did you ever read my blog again? I got quite long never update my blog. You remember what I've mentioned to you before? Blog represent my heart, it can express my very true feeling in here. Every single words I'd promise here, did you still remember? I bet you got, but, I already forgot all the promises I had made for you. I'm bad , right? You remember last time when you hanged up my phone? I will gone insane and try to calling you like thousand times. But now, I think I really changed. I'm worry, I am very worry for our future. I don't know how many times I'd broke your fragile heart. I'm really sorry, I was wrong. I'm so regret, I missed you so much. I can't even sleep well. I afraid of being alone again. I need you , I need you more than everyone. I need your hugs. Sorry , please come back to me again. I love you.

Loneliness...

2010-02-28T22:02:00.002+08:00

Do you realize that I always think too much in the night ? I feel so fragile lately . Everything that happened to me is always remind me of you . My mind and thought is full of you . I'm so tired , really . I miss you too very much . We used to quarrel and argue when last time , is me don't know how to considerate your feeling . Thought you was trying to find some trouble and always angry of me without any reason . I thought girls are trouble before . Because that time , i really don't know how a person missing their love one is so suffer and helpless . But me , never want to try to understand how are your feeling .How are those feeling that missing of somebody that you love . Is so tired . I'm really sorry , now , i really deeply understand how true you love me before . If the GOD let us start over again one more time . I swear , I rather do anything just for you , even my life . I started can't live without you . Without you , my life is so empty , fallen . Finally , I realized I never stand at your side and support of you . I just wish I can give you all my best . I'm trying my best . We talked about many things about our future , and where are we plan to travel , many many joyful things that happened to us . I really can't forget about it . Yeang , I really cherish you so much . I hope to see the smile on your face every single day . Only you can give me what i needed . I really so miss you , I miss your hug , your kisses . And the Lovely touch of your hand on my skin . Where are you , I miss you so much . I was wrong .Day after day , I'm going insane of you . No matter how my heart breaks , I always waiting for you .

I'm so sorry ...

2010-01-20T02:11:00.003+08:00

I know i'm acting backward these day . I'm so sorry , can't give you any help when you really need me . I know what i said to you it's made you sad so much . I'm so sorry , I don't mind to do everything that you demand me to do . I just want you to be happy , that's is the purpose why I love you , cause your smile melt my heart , I melting in your eyes , falling in love with you without any reason . I'm so sorry to make you lose your wide and sweetest smile in the world . I missed you .

I just can't be honest...

2009-12-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

Why am I so stubborn , I also don't know why . Don't ask me , I also don't have the best answer for myself . Even I also don't know what am i needed in my mind . I'm truly sorry , I'm apologize here for you . What can I do to make you believe that I'm really missing you all the time . I'm so stubborn , always did something rash and impulse . I always talk to you warily in every single of my word . But , it's failed also . I tried to evade it , but things seems to be so hard for me . I'm not blaming everything that happened to us , I just can't be so strong enough to bear my words and even success my little promise . I pondering everyday and night , why u would show me such reaction and response when I really trying to defuse my anger and solve everything happened to us . Maybe that is harsh for you , maybe i couldn't understand at all . Maybe I'm being too egotistical . But , I really truly upset and regret for myself . I hope i'm not conceal everything in myself , either you . I hope we can truly forgive for each other and being honest to talk with each other . Yeang , you know I really do , right ? You are the best for me . I love you . Night .

11 p.m ...

2009-11-22T23:07:00.003+08:00

Hey , baby girl , what are you doing there in Betong ? Is 11 p.m now , I think you know what should I do . I tried to called you many times , but the line seems can't connect to thailand . But , is alright , I know you coming back soon , I try to make myself busy and find something to do in here . If not , I think I might going to be insane of you slowly . Erm , are you having fun there ? Enjoy any delicious food ? I wanna ask you many things , but can't find you . So , I posted this to let you see when you online . 11 p.m now , I really can't sleep well without your voice . =) So , these few days , i used to sleep at 5 a.m , and wake up at 2 or 3 noon . It's so boring to pass my holiday without you , what can I do ? So, tomorrow you coming back soon , and we going to thailand again , XD . But , is an island , I think it might be fun . I stop at here now , wanna continue my final project for tomorrow submission . I miss you ... muackxx

Pulau Langkawi Trip...

2009-10-27T01:19:00.004+08:00

Hi , guess what , this is our third trip in this year . Last time , we spent a lot of good times in Port Dickson . I think I already used to write my blog and express my feeling in the middle of the night , but I kinda like it . I think she never knows what am i doing now , cause she having her sweet dreams at Ipoh , and having a lot of funs with her friends . By the way , this is our's Pulau Langkawi trip , if compare with 07 year Langkawi trip . I think this would be another type of enjoyment in my life . I love to enjoy everything and share everything and everywhere with my soulmate , I had a lot of good memories at there too . Do you guys know what , we spent 12 hours in a bus to get to K.Perlis . After that , we also waited 2 hours to get ferry to get to P.Langkawi , is so ridiculous , we wasted a lot of times in there . However , is also a nice trip for me .Dear , I really can't wait the coming of November , I felt so excited . At last , I just wanna say , Yeang , I really miss you so much now , hope u can read my mind , I know it can't be ...lol...and another thing , you look very pretty in Bikini....Muackxxx...

Promise

2009-08-20T01:55:00.005+08:00

Tonight is a great night , everbody is haveing their nice and sweet dream at this moment . But I can't fall asleep at all . My mind was just thinking about everything that i had promise to her . I made a lot of promises to her . But , it just seems like everything is being same and is not getting better and change . She afraid , she started not believe in me at all , she afraid of my promise , afraid of our's future . My dear , if you saw my blog , i want to tell you , trust me , everything I do , every promises I made to you , what I want , is just only you . You are the only person who can change me , no more selfish , no more lonelisness in my life . I never want to break any of my promises that I had promised to you . I really wan to tell you how much you affected me and my life , I can change only just for you . If I can make a promise to you now , I will look deeply into your eyes , and whisper beside your ear tell you that , " I will be with you forever , no matter what happen between of us , I promise ."

A man who need Loved

2009-08-09T01:30:00.006+08:00

I don't know what am i doing here now , I don't know what am i thinking and what could I explain at this moment . Inside my mind , I just can't stop thiking of your crying face , i felt hurt , i felt i'm useless . Now at this time , both of us getting tired again , I making all the thinngs appeared once and once again . I hate myself , I hate everything that I have done . I never understand what you want from me , you never understand what am i want to get from you . Why always a man hurt their love one ? Why i need to care so much ? Because I am a man ? Why man cannot cry ? Why a man must bear all the responsible ? Why a man cannot just loved by someone ? I am so lonely , helpless , I have no more time for my own , even for friends , I gave the world and what i can give , even my soul . Yes , you are my soulmate , no doubt . No matter what happen ,nothing gonna change it inside my heart . Why am I acting like this ? I felt like I am no longer myself , I already become a girl , easily get hurt , scare , loneliness , breakable heart . Sometimes , I hope I could be a girl who can just loved by someone , care by someone . I am not that strong enough as you seen , I'm weak , fragile heart , even love to cry when i am getting lonely . Why must girl only get hurt by someone ? How about man ? Man is not what we seen that strong and brave , some man need more love than girls do . I admin I'm weak , fragile heart , need love , need care . But all I want is just you , I can give up everything just to let you know how much I love you and how much i need you , I could not imagine if i lose you in my life . I'm so sorry , Yeang . Is true , "You mean the world to me " I wouldn't change my mind , you already are the great for me . Just my fault , I need to be strong , brave , heedful for you , cause I know you need loved by me . I wouldn't let others grab you away from me , I can't lose you , I am getting tired to hurt you , I need to rest in your arms , keep me save from harms , I am fear of cold . I swear i will be a Better man .

Feel great now...

2009-07-16T00:29:00.007+08:00

Hey , Im back , is quite a long time , assignment , project , exam . I felt exhausted , suffocated these few months . Feel like there is not time for me to rest or take a long breahte . But , i still got she supporting me no matter how hard is it . Thanks a lot . This picture look simple for you all , but , is really so meaningful for me . Why , i think you all might don't know what is it . Hehe ... is great feel and so happy . Hard to explain the feelings , she so gorgeous and adorable , lovely . I'm glad i living , and i'm in love with her . Drowned....lolss...I still got many things to share , coming up ... We should be happy , stay happy . There are still got a lot of fun and there might some special person appear in your life soon . I have found mine . My world chaged .

Because of you...

2009-04-28T03:18:00.003+08:00

In the middle of the night , my mind started again , i can't stop thinking of her . I was listening a song at the moment , named ' because of you' . I started to think about myself , started to know what is love . Because of you , I changed ; Because of you , I loved ; Because of you , I learned ; Because of you , I never get enough . I wouldn't feel satisfied of your love . Hey...dear , still remember this sentence? ' Because of you , I dream bigger , reach higher , feel braver , love deeper ' . Thanks , I appreciate so much . Everything you did to me , even a small action , is so meaningful and sweet for me . I enjoy to be with you , and your family , although i didn't say it . But i'm so happy see your smilling face , felt naive and warm . Thanks for sharing with me , because of you , every part of my heart became you .

Back to school...

2009-04-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

Ya, back to school . Is the meaning , but not back to school , we just wear our uniform to Celeneisure . Is so silly , but fun . I decided to watch movie with her that day , but , they not allowed uniform to enter the cinemas , is weird . But , i planned to go had our lunch at Manhattan Fish Market . She look so cute when she worn her uniform . Since we never went out before when we was secondary schoolmate . But now , is a good chance to try . Is a good idea , but it was not my idea , it was she , she wanna wear school uniform to shopping . At first , i 'm not dare to try ,after few months , is a fresh thing for me to try . I guess , i can do anything with her , but i can't do anything without her .

Would you like to try...?

My Trip...

2009-03-26T02:01:00.002+08:00

I just came back from Pulau Perhentian few days ago , now , is time to update my blog , nothing to post and write , because too much good memory and sweet things happened to me during the trip . Something so happy , and full of memory . I like it . All the people get sun burn , except me , becaue i used to be , and , my skin is tanned , i won't mind also , lol . I just took little photo during the trip , telling the truth , i dont like to take photo , i don't know why . During the night at pulau perhentian , the sky is full of stars , is so romantic , i had a beachwalk with my gal in the middle of the night . We love it so much . We also played stupid game on the beach and sea . Is so funny , but i am so enjoy it . This trip is nothing special , but , is a good memory for me and my gal . This is our secret . I miss her so much ....

Missing...

2009-03-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

I finally update my blog , is quite a long time . Not because i rush my assignment , because i having my good moment with my sweetie . i sledom find her to chat this few days , because i need to rush all my assignment before i go to my trip . I control myself to find her and finish all my things . I had my first cooking experience with my sweetie on march 14 , white valentine for us . I got picture for that , maybe you guys can visit my sweetie blog . Left 2 days for our's pulau perhentian trip , felt nervous and excited . I miss her so much , altought i just met her last saturday . I miss her kisses and warmth . Did you miss me ? I thinking of your charming smiles everynight before i go to my bed . I think this is my habit already . I like it very much and i wouldn't change it .

Love...

2009-03-05T02:14:00.002+08:00

You know love ? Did you fall in love with someone ? What is that feeling ? it's wonderful ? or suffering ? Love is to give , but not to expect any return . Is this love ? I don't think so . Love is quietly praying for each other , rather than to each other a lot of requirements ; tolerance, rather than condone ; accepted , rather than endure ; to apologize , but also thanks ; to admit his fault , but also correct . Love is a strange things between any of us , no one could explain , even no one could understand . But i am learning , i caring , no matter what , and no matter how . If I could have just one wish , i would wish to wake up every day to the sound of your breath on my neck , the warmth of your lips on my cheek , the touch of your fingers on my skin , and the feel of your heart beating with mine . Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you . Yeang , I Love You .

Did you found your love...?

The Meaning of a Kiss

2009-03-04T01:21:00.002+08:00

A kiss is a promise , a seal of a covenant , a carrier of current , a sign of deep and devoted love . A kiss is the reaction of the interaction between two hearts . It's mean many things to me . I like to kiss her , when she was closing her eyes and lay on my arms , i like to kiss her when she say I Love You to me , i like to kiss her when she was shy , i like to kiss her when her eyes was staring at me , her eyes telling all the truth without saying any words to me , i feel it , it's was amazing , her kisses and the way she kiss me , is so meaningful to me , don't you ? Do you kiss your love partner when she was hurted or depressed ? Every kisses of each other is a promise , even a impressive moment to me .

What does a kiss mean to you?

Letter....

2009-03-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

I love to read the letter when i was down , inside , is some kind of energy charger for me , i will smile without any reason when i reading the letter , it so funny , but i like it . It was a wonderful moment when i received the letter , felt so happy , nervous , excited , i never had the feel before and i never had a feeling about this , it's touched . She mean everything for me , and all the thoughtful things she done for me , and the special part she play in all my thoughts and dreams . I feel for her and the special place she hold in my heart , now , and always .

"You mean the world to me..."

Midnight moment

2009-03-03T02:24:00.000+08:00

Is late now, I cant sleep, my mind just full of her , yeang...i miss her so much , i can't control myself to stop thinking of her , her cute smile , pretty face , her look , even her body scent , i don't know why i always at the midnight moment will miss her that much . May be , i felt lonely and quiet here , i really cant count how many joy moment that i had spend with her , she mean so much to me . I never felt this way , she made me almost going insane , even cant live without her . I really can't imagine how my life will change if i lose her , go back to my boring life ? i DON'T WANT TO , always so out with my friends , sleeping lonely at home , watching the computer screen whole day , no any sharing and caring , even no loved for me . Is loneliness , i'm so miss you.....