A man who need Loved

I don't know what am i doing here now , I don't know what am i thinking and what could I explain at this moment . Inside my mind , I just can't stop thiking of your crying face , i felt hurt , i felt i'm useless . Now at this time , both of us getting tired again , I making all the thinngs appeared once and once again . I hate myself , I hate everything that I have done . I never understand what you want from me , you never understand what am i want to get from you . Why always a man hurt their love one ? Why i need to care so much ? Because I am a man ? Why man cannot cry ? Why a man must bear all the responsible ? Why a man cannot just loved by someone ? I am so lonely , helpless , I have no more time for my own , even for friends , I gave the world and what i can give , even my soul . Yes , you are my soulmate , no doubt . No matter what happen ,nothing gonna change it inside my heart . Why am I acting like this ? I felt like I am no longer myself , I already become a girl , easily get hurt , scare , loneliness , breakable heart . Sometimes , I hope I could be a girl who can just loved by someone , care by someone . I am not that strong enough as you seen , I'm weak , fragile heart , even love to cry when i am getting lonely . Why must girl only get hurt by someone ? How about man ? Man is not what we seen that strong and brave , some man need more love than girls do . I admin I'm weak , fragile heart , need love , need care . But all I want is just you , I can give up everything just to let you know how much I love you and how much i need you , I could not imagine if i lose you in my life . I'm so sorry , Yeang . Is true , "You mean the world to me " I wouldn't change my mind , you already are the great for me . Just my fault , I need to be strong , brave , heedful for you , cause I know you need loved by me . I wouldn't let others grab you away from me , I can't lose you , I am getting tired to hurt you , I need to rest in your arms , keep me save from harms , I am fear of cold . I swear i will be a Better man .